I'm off to Girl's State!!! :D
Will be writing about it afterwards!!
June 12-18th!
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Summer 2011
Summer 2011 has Begun*!
Wow. Junior year is over. Summer 2011 has now begun with the SAT IIs being over from June 4th. Wow. I'm almost a senior. A SENIOR. The time for college apps, essays, etc. will soon begin as I'm leaving the SAT phase ....
Well. The time I've been waiting for soo long has finally arrived and I'm excited and anxious as I hope to use this time very efficiently! ~hopef
ully ;)
Every year at the start of summer, I make all these plans for how I want to spend my time, and more often than not, at the end of vacations, I regret the days I've wasted doing literally nothing.. this year..no more.
In my last post, I typed up some of my New Year Resolutions and wishes.. and honestly, I was unable to fully fulfill some of my goals for Junior Year. Remember Chemistry? Well...umm.. I don't think the AP test was that great.... time and free response was killer. Well, anyways.. despite some of my failures during the spring semester of Junior Year, I've learned that I can't change the past. What's happened and done can't be changed. Pessimistic right? We mess up something.. say hypothetically an AP test for example (for me numero uno for this year, numero dos for my life) and when it's done, when the teacher calls time and you put your pencil done, it's done. Fin. Final. You can't change anything about it. That's when all the guilt and regrets start seeping in. "Why didn't I review that chapter? Why didn't I look over Faraday's Law? Practiced more with equation writing?" And the list goes on and on.... Regrets. Tears. (<- OK, maybe not) Panic. The whole package.
But then, I couldn't dwell in this bubble and cocoon of regret because the next day I had another AP test. It was hard getting over screwing my Chem AP test, but I had to motivate myself to keep myself together and focus on the other tests ahead of me. I think that's the hardest part with having a string of the most important tests of the year (aside from SATs). Focusing and keeping yourself together. The studying was manageable and I have to admit entertaining at times [My f
riends and I agreed to only converse in Spanish to practice weeks before the test.. I think this helped alot: hint].
But after that Chem test on Monday in May, number 1 out of 4 this year, I pretty much lost my confidence. Which was extremely disadvantageous considering I had Spanish the next day. So I had to pull myself together and honestly it took time. Hours. At first, while I was doing some last minute prepping for Spanish, I really couldn't. I couldn't speak it. I couldn't write it. I essentially just lost it. But with some pep talk :) I realized that I had to just forget about Chem. What happened all ready occurred. It's the past now. No fixing it. I screwed up, but I couldn't screw up all my AP tests cause of that one. So swallowing hard, I faced it. No one can fix the past, but the future was still "fixable," still "changeable." It was still up to you to write it. And if one thought it was too late and essentially gave up on that future task, it would soon become the past and then one would have more regrets and could not change it even if one wanted to. SO0o.. I guess what I learned was that I needed to take charge [as in study] when I was still in charge, when I was still the author, when I was still the commander [when I could still change the outcome.]
Chem- it's been hard you! -- but nevertheless, I learned a ton from you..... Learned that to study for a math based test, doing practice problems after problems was the most vital instead of just reading the chem textbook/review books. Although I learned the hard way of the truth of what my parents had been stressing for a long time, I was able to truly "get" it and learn it for other tests. As I studied for the Chem SAT II, determined not to screw this one up, I did practice test after practice test, problem set after problem set ..... all the while, regretting.. "why didn't I study like this for the AP Chem test?" That's when it's no point to lament over past deeds and regrets, as long as one learned from them. We have to just move on.... just like the world.
So I guess, when you have the chance.... do it! -- don't have regrets later. And if yo
u had already made a mistake, let it go as you can't afford to lose something else [time, self-esteem, confidence] because of it. Thank you AP Chem for teaching me these lessons as now I know how painful math-oriented AP tests are if I don't study that right way. I guess you've saved me from screwing up future AP tests and college exams. :D
For this summer, I will try my very best to save it! :D I am volunteering at St. Joseph's twice a week nowadays and will be going to Girls' State tomorrow! In addition, it is my goal to continue to write posts on this blog and reconnect all my feelings and thoughts about what I do during volunteering and at camps. Finally, I will write posts about some issue that I am interesting in...
I've always wanted to write posts about the following topics since this year/last year and since I now have the time.. I shall!! :D
be on the look out for posts about:
* Haiti - One Year
* Unit 731
* Death/War
* Grapes of Wrath
* Books I've read this year in English class and what I've learned
* Personal experiences
* Girl's State
* St. Joseph's
* etc.
I challenge you to efficiently use your summer! :D [or at least try to]
Well. The time I've been waiting for soo long has finally arrived and I'm excited and anxious as I hope to use this time very efficiently! ~hopef
ully ;)Every year at the start of summer, I make all these plans for how I want to spend my time, and more often than not, at the end of vacations, I regret the days I've wasted doing literally nothing.. this year..no more.
In my last post, I typed up some of my New Year Resolutions and wishes.. and honestly, I was unable to fully fulfill some of my goals for Junior Year. Remember Chemistry? Well...umm.. I don't think the AP test was that great.... time and free response was killer. Well, anyways.. despite some of my failures during the spring semester of Junior Year, I've learned that I can't change the past. What's happened and done can't be changed. Pessimistic right? We mess up something.. say hypothetically an AP test for example (for me numero uno for this year, numero dos for my life) and when it's done, when the teacher calls time and you put your pencil done, it's done. Fin. Final. You can't change anything about it. That's when all the guilt and regrets start seeping in. "Why didn't I review that chapter? Why didn't I look over Faraday's Law? Practiced more with equation writing?" And the list goes on and on.... Regrets. Tears. (<- OK, maybe not) Panic. The whole package.
But then, I couldn't dwell in this bubble and cocoon of regret because the next day I had another AP test. It was hard getting over screwing my Chem AP test, but I had to motivate myself to keep myself together and focus on the other tests ahead of me. I think that's the hardest part with having a string of the most important tests of the year (aside from SATs). Focusing and keeping yourself together. The studying was manageable and I have to admit entertaining at times [My f
riends and I agreed to only converse in Spanish to practice weeks before the test.. I think this helped alot: hint].But after that Chem test on Monday in May, number 1 out of 4 this year, I pretty much lost my confidence. Which was extremely disadvantageous considering I had Spanish the next day. So I had to pull myself together and honestly it took time. Hours. At first, while I was doing some last minute prepping for Spanish, I really couldn't. I couldn't speak it. I couldn't write it. I essentially just lost it. But with some pep talk :) I realized that I had to just forget about Chem. What happened all ready occurred. It's the past now. No fixing it. I screwed up, but I couldn't screw up all my AP tests cause of that one. So swallowing hard, I faced it. No one can fix the past, but the future was still "fixable," still "changeable." It was still up to you to write it. And if one thought it was too late and essentially gave up on that future task, it would soon become the past and then one would have more regrets and could not change it even if one wanted to. SO0o.. I guess what I learned was that I needed to take charge [as in study] when I was still in charge, when I was still the author, when I was still the commander [when I could still change the outcome.]
Chem- it's been hard you! -- but nevertheless, I learned a ton from you..... Learned that to study for a math based test, doing practice problems after problems was the most vital instead of just reading the chem textbook/review books. Although I learned the hard way of the truth of what my parents had been stressing for a long time, I was able to truly "get" it and learn it for other tests. As I studied for the Chem SAT II, determined not to screw this one up, I did practice test after practice test, problem set after problem set ..... all the while, regretting.. "why didn't I study like this for the AP Chem test?" That's when it's no point to lament over past deeds and regrets, as long as one learned from them. We have to just move on.... just like the world.
So I guess, when you have the chance.... do it! -- don't have regrets later. And if yo
u had already made a mistake, let it go as you can't afford to lose something else [time, self-esteem, confidence] because of it. Thank you AP Chem for teaching me these lessons as now I know how painful math-oriented AP tests are if I don't study that right way. I guess you've saved me from screwing up future AP tests and college exams. :DFor this summer, I will try my very best to save it! :D I am volunteering at St. Joseph's twice a week nowadays and will be going to Girls' State tomorrow! In addition, it is my goal to continue to write posts on this blog and reconnect all my feelings and thoughts about what I do during volunteering and at camps. Finally, I will write posts about some issue that I am interesting in...
I've always wanted to write posts about the following topics since this year/last year and since I now have the time.. I shall!! :D
be on the look out for posts about:
* Haiti - One Year
* Unit 731
* Death/War
* Grapes of Wrath
* Books I've read this year in English class and what I've learned
* Personal experiences
* Girl's State
* St. Joseph's
* etc.
I challenge you to efficiently use your summer! :D [or at least try to]
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