Duke

This emails wants to go to Duke. "Dear Young-Jee: I am writing to let you know that we have not received a response from you concerning your placement on our waiting list. We are therefore assuming that you have made a firm commitment to another university and that you do not wish to be on our waiting list. I know that by now you have made other arrangements for your college education, and I expect that, given your accomplishments, you had a number of excellent choices. I know that the school fortunate enough to count you among its students will benefit greatly from your presence. I have no doubt that you’ll find much success as you pursue your education further. Thank you again for applying to Duke." Ha.Ha.Ha. Duke probably thinks I got accepted to lots of schools and that I chose a one that is deemed higher than it. hee hee. It says: "A NUMBER OF EXCELLENT CHOICES" when I really only had one. I love nice e-mails. Thanks Duke, but no...I won't be on that waitlist. I hate waiting for the obvious rejection now. :)

Blogspot's new template kinda sucks. It won't let me space out lines....argh.

Hello! It's been awhile since my last blog posts that, I believe, were centered around rejections. During the past few weeks, I believe my path for the next 4 years has been settled. I shouldn't be writing this blog post until after AP testing, but writing has always had a very calming and refreshing effect on me, and I think I need to escape from the real world right now. I have currently finished 2 out of my 8 AP tests and I just need a break. I don't want to even think about the AP tests that are scattered throughout next week. I need to study, but ha, sooo much!! :( Oh well~! I'll get started soon! :) Anyways... Warning: the contents in this post will be scattered and random! Read at your own risk of confusion :) Life Without Mom: It's interesting how even though a person goes away from you, life still goes on and everything seems to still be functioning. I've always been a tough girl who can keep emotions to herself and who also goes on with life .... Maybe it's cause my dad and I always Skype with her :) It's also interesting how easily my dad can cover both the mom and dad roles. :) College: Ah.....college.......I'm going to UT. Hook'EM! I'm actually honestly pretty excited, yet at the same time a part of me is yearning to go to another school, which is honestly very, very foolish. Why is it foolish? -- Well, all the things I have ever wanted in a school is provided by UT. I basically get a full ride to UT, as I got a $19,500 scholarship through the awesome Terry Foundation as a Terry Scholar. I can't express how much being chosen as one of the Terry Scholar means to me! The main reason I chose not to accept any of my wait list offers was me becoming a Terry Scholar. In addition, I feel like UT has been the only school that WANTS me. It has been the ONLY one that has basically said, you're smart and you have the potential to become the doctor and person you desire to become and we want to invest in you, we believe in you. And that has honestly meant the world to me through these hard times of rejections and dejection. Being told that hey, you're good enough and that someone appreciates all my efforts in service and leadership, etc. has really helped me.

I honestly believe that all humans are able to make the grades, climb to the top of the school ranks. It just depends on if you want to invest time doing that, hardwork, etc. Which are undeniably important characters. However, I believe it is more important to be a more well-rounded unselfish person who enjoys the world explores humanity than be a few ranks up. There will be thousands of these people at UT, even though we often think that UT is just the back-up, the place where rejects often fall back to. But, it's also where you find the people who have followed their passions and although have had setbacks in college decisions (if they did indeed get rejected,) have stayed true to themselves. I am greatly generalizing and although I know the dangers of doing so, I just feel like this sometimes. We understand the taste of rejection and so I believe have become so much more humble and appreciative. It took me to the very end of high school to realize that the college doesn't matter. It's really just a name. Do you think that going to a different school with the same attitudes in each will be greatly different? That I, with my same attitude and work ethic, would have been smarted attending XYZ high school, than Consol. Hell no. I was blind by the name values that society blindly places on students. I didn't understand what the upper classmen told me last year about how it doesn't matter. It's about what you do there. I seek to now try to deliver this message to the Juniors now, but although they respectful listen, I know they don't understand. It'll be when the rejection letters roll around that they finally will. Of course, if you were accepted to an Ivy, that is a huge milestone and achievement..I am NOT denying that...but I guess this post is for the people like me. I'm excited for UT, but something in me makes me a bit jealous... UT: My Girl state buddy is going to probably be my roommate..and I AM SO EXCITED.SO VERY!! In addition, Plan II is awesome :) and Terry scholar :) and I was accepted to the 3 year undergraduate program that directs us straight to med school. However, I had to chose between the 3 year and Plan II ... sad. I hope I made the right choice, as my goal is to not only become a doctor but to become a well-rounded one. For me the path to the future is simple and plain. God, admist all the pain, has still remembered me and directed me to the path of UT. I believe that he has truly lead me through this path, knowing that I will do better in a UT's setting than at another school... April 5th was my birthday..and it was the day that I received new of being selected a Terry Finalist and selected for an interview. I also believe that the many college interviews were in the end not useless at all, as I was able to rock the terry interview through so much practice. :) PEACE.