Reminder

I'm looking back at my blog and I've realized that my truly thoughtful and deep posts are in my older posts. Just sayin'
*winks*

P.S. -- WHY CAN'T I WRITE WELL AND EXPRESS MYSELF WELL WHEN I'M WRITING AN ESSAY, YET I CAN EXPRESS MYSELF WELL AND SOUND GOOD ON THIS BLOG? I'VE TRIED WRITING MY ESSAY ON HERE.. YET IT'S NOT THE SAME. WHY? Cause only after long periods of thinking, do posts come up here.. which means the topics I've written about here, really mean something to me. GR.

Words

Once words, sentences, paragraphs, and essays exit my mind and fill the paper. They are mine.

You are the conductor of a majestic orchestra of words. They are yours. Yours only. No one can write the same thought or similar thought with the same sentence, with the same assembly.

I am the conductor and the owner of my own words.

Just Ranting

Why can't college essay topics be more interesting?

For example:

1. Write about a dream you had and how you discovered something/came to realize something/discovered who you are..

2. Who are you?

The Truth

The College Essay Process......
Beware this not a fun and exciting one. But rather a torturous one. At least for this senior.

This is me before I start an essay...

Thinking: This could actually be good.

While writing:

Thinking: Hmmm...and I need to include this and this.. on a roll! yeah!

Stopping in mid-sentence:

Thinking: Where am I going with this? What the hell.

Confused. Frustrated. Moment.

Thinking: What am I doing? What is this that I am writing?

Then... There's two ending either.. a

Ok.. I got this.. revise.. and edit.. and THERE IT IS! MOMENT




Or a OMG .........



Moment..


WHAT DO I DO NOW?

My path to College

College essays drain the life out of you. You have to hack into yourself to discover your darkest secret. You have to make the essay sound not like you're ranting. You have to make the essay perfect, while being you. The irony? I'm not perfect.

You go on a limb and a hunch and furiously write. Then you look up mid sentence and question.. where in the world am I going with this? What the hell.

Why is it so hard.. when it seems so easy? I can write AP English and Spanish essays in a breeze, yet writing about the most hackneyed (SAT prep comes in handy) topics is the hardest thing/process, yet the most simplest sounding/kid sounding product. Diaries at least were fun. No pressure. Life is full of pressures. Haha. Get the pun? Meh, I'm just drained. Imagine this.. I have like 5 more schools to go. Ha. that's funny.

Did I mention it's the holidays? Not for this girl. My desk is scattered with papers... scattered thoughts...

Not true!

Senior year is harder than Junior year.
Who said it gets easier? :( blah!