Feelings

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Ok.. I'm from College Station and I attend A&M Consolidated High School. Although the earthquake in Haiti occurred on Tuesday, I learned about the disaster yesterday when my friend's mom told me. I haven't known about this earthquake because I didn't have time to watch the news for the past couple of days. But it shocked me because our school and teachers didn't announce it or discuss about this disaster. They supposedly thought that we already have known, but not one person around me,[ during lunch, in the hallways, or class... ] talked about this urgent situation. Everyone's mind seem to be focus on events that are happening here and Haiti didn't seem to really be a discussion topic. This shows how isolated teenagers may feel with the real world. The world in the minds of the teenagers are focused primarily on THEIR CURRENT lives. So after I thought about this situation and watched Wednesday's and Thursday's news, I realized yet again how blessed we all are to have a home, food, water, and other basic necessities that we take for granted. I sighed and looked around me.. here I was eating a warm bowl of soup and rice and watching the chaos that was happening just a couple of thousand miles away in a little island country of Haiti. I grew sad and wanted to something that would in someway help these people.....
My dream has also been to become a doctor and join the United Nations or other organizations that reached their arms out to the needy and devastated parts of the world. One dilemma: Would I be strong enough both mentally and physically to see the devastation and help?? I also thought I was afraid of the sight of immense amount of blood and pain...
seeing blood wasn't my problem but actually I wasn't very strong watching the beginning incisions in an operation .. I would winced and seem to feel it [if that makes sense?]
But as I watched the survivors of the earthquake doing all that they could to help their neighbors and doctors, volunteers, and other personnel rushing to Haiti to help in any way possible.... I gained confidence ...
Doctors from all over the world are hurrying to Haiti to help the people there, even though they know the dangers and pain that is in Haiti. They sacrifice. These doctors could have stayed at home, leaving the relief effort to another person, and just continued on with their lives. But NO!! These honorable people left in a moment's notice.. right when they heard.. and without hesitation to set forth to cure and save hundreds of lives that would have other wise been lost. I gained a more powerful vision and courage. If these powerful and wonderful people could see blood and work in difficult and panicky situations .. I could too... and I will too in the future ...
Being a doctor and going to help people has always been my mission in life.. people in North Korea and joining the United Nations ... but as my vision and mission gets stronger ..
i can suck up my "fear" of blood and witnessing devastation ... why? -- because it can and would save lives...